31 hours to take-off.

Greetings earthlings!
Here I am--laying on the floor in my loft overlooking the pacific ocean. (well, I can't see the ocean from here just thought it'd sound cool.) Anyways, I just finished my last bit of packing! So I'm enjoying a slice of pizza and a root beer. Trying to savor the taste as long as I can! Pretty soon it'll be rice going to my hips and curry to who knows elsewhere. All I know is in less than 31 hours I'll be on a plane to the beginning of a life changing experience. So many people have been asking me questions--so here are some answers!
How am I feeling? A cluster of excitement, butterflies, thrills, and nerves all as elephants tramping in the pit of my stomach.
Am I ready? A question to your question--can anyone really be 100% "ready" to live in a foreign country for 3 months time? All I know is that God will give us the strength to do whatever He's asked us to do if we are willing to remain obedient to Him.
What am I bringing? Medications, vitamins, sanitizing wipes, and most important of all--beef jerky.
What will we be doing in India? The first two weeks we will be running a children's VBS in Mumbai. From morning to lunch we will teach classes, then we have work duty where we will get dirty and clean stuff, then from 4-8pm we will have "outreach" where we will lead street ministries, preach in churches, and more! Then finally at the end of each day my team and I will debrief and prayer/testimony time. Our schedules are likely to change but that's just an idea of what it will be like for the first couple weeks at least.
Will I be able to keep in contact with y'all? I am hoping to catch some Internet access on my phone once every week or two so I can blog or post photos of what God's doing.
What am I doing after outreach? Idk! Who knows where God will send me next. Whether it be staffing a DTS school here in Hawaii, moving to the rivers of the amazon, doing a medical DTS in London, or move back home. There are endless possibilies and open doors. Just praying God closes the ones that are not for me. Only God knows right now! I asked Him to reveal to me what to do, but He said to just finish this first, then He'll tell me what's next when I need to know. I trust Him, no worries about the future. 😌👍
How can y'all help me? PRAYER. Pray over my team's health. Pray over our safety and traveling mercies. Pray over our friendships. Pray over the people of India that we will be in contact with. Pray that God will give us mercy and favor to the ministries and places we go. Pray for us to have supernatural energy. Pray that we will cope with the culture shock. Pray for peace, opportunities, and personally pray against the spirit of fear to be broken off of me. I want to be BOLD to be obedient. Thank you! 🙏❤


Phew- that was a mouthful. I am feeling quite emotionally and physically drained. We have been busier than ever these past couple weeks. Yet at the same time I'm STOKED. I don't even know what else to say-- the next time I post it'll be from India! I love y'all and thanks for all the prayers and support.
You're so special and appreciated.
Blessings,
Xoxo

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This week so far has been bomb! Funny-- it's only Tuesday. Our speaker, Chad Lamen from Bethel church has been lighting a fire and excitement in all of us. My health this week has been under the weather a bit, but I'm dragging myself literally out of bed (picture that) to hear this man of God impart his stories, experiences, and faith in me. Some of the stuff he's been saying is just too good for me not to share, so I'll point out some of the main things I've gotten between yesterday and today.. 

 ONE PERSON in agreement with God is enough to change a NATION. 

Fear can paralyze you and keep you from walking into your 

destiny. Fear will always knock on the door, but it's up

 to you whether or not to ANSWER the door. 

WHAT  you FOCUS ON is what you GET.

"My desire to see His face out data my desire to live." 

--> God wants to reveal Himself to you far greater than you 

desire to see Him. And it's in the outpouring that His face is REVEALED. 

Un-Forgiveness/Offense

keeps us from 

walking in our destiny. 

What people do on the outside reveals their core values. 

Man's perspective on success is results. 

But when you TAKE RISKS 

that is Heavens idea of SUCCESS. 

It's when we STEP OUT of the boat

and TAKE RISKS 

that we learn about the SUPERNATURAL

The more you GIVE 

the more you NEED to receive

that is why you have to be HUNGRY

God wants to cultivate YOUR OWN WELL 

where you can DRINK and never be THIRSTY 

We first need to encounter God 

The greatest message you will ever preach

is

YOUR OWN LIFE. 

What you EXPECT from Jesus

is what you get. 

Going after God--

we cannot care what PEOPLE THINK 

about us 

A lot of times God will give us

the OPPORTUNITY for 

BREAKTHROUGH when it's most INCONVENIENT

to see where our priorities lie

in fear of man OR breakthrough 

You don't have more authority by the 

VOLUME OF YOUR VOICE

but because JESUS

lives inside of you

We have to get to the place where

we come to the END of OURSELVES 

"Don't focus on yourself

or your insecurities

or the things you can and cannot do

Focus on ME." -God

Mindset change: What if people don't get

 healed when I pray for them?? 

No. What if they DO get healed! 

We have been preparing ourselves for outreach by taking a basic Healthcare class. As you know before we were doing the Justice Water course, so we have now finished that one a few weeks ago and began this Healthcare one. We have this class every week until we leave on March 28th. We've been learning all of the above about healthcare so we can help not only to spiritually heal people, but physically as well. Everything from education about clean water, dehydration and washing hands, to infections, diseases and sicknesses. All of the above! It's getting me excited to leave, I can't wait! The anticipation is growing and the elephants in my stomach are racing to see what God is going to do and how He will move through our team. I know God will use all 7 of us in divine ways, and each person on my team brings something different and unique to the group. 

PS- I love the Holy Spirit. He is my bestfriend. 

I have posted below some pictures from this past week. Enjoy!

So many good stories and revelations being imparted. 

Haha practice dummy, don't choke Cat! ;) 

Learning is fun. Especially since we will be doing all of this on the mission field. 

Saving a life! 

Took a while for the light to go from red to green (which means the person is now breathing). Looks like I need to hit the gym in these next few weeks;). 

The clock is ticking!!! 

Keep my team in your prayers! Also my health please- I want to be awake and alert these last few weeks I have to seek and prepare. Please pray that I stay focused and spend extra quiet time with Him. I'm afraid our schedule gets so busy that I forget or just don't feel like doing that--which I believe is most important. We have no more free weekends so our schedules are piling up with even more work and classes! One more thing--please pray we have no more complications getting our Visas! We have been having lots of trouble with the applications and are praying we get them back soon and APPROVED. We want to be sure we actually make it to India.;) 

Love and miss y'all! Blessings. 

-Xxx 

WOAH JOY WOAH!

        I am sitting at the Banyan Tree cafe in the dusk of the night listening to live worship from passionate Ywamers. What more could I ask for? But to be surrounded by Holy Ghost fire seeking young adults. I honestly don't even know where to begin on catching y'all up, considering it's been a while since I've posted, my apologies.
Basically ever since the pure heart week I told y'all about, I'd been struggling with temptations even stronger than before I had given them to God. It was like a attack of the enemy as soon as he saw I was putting up a fight. I was constantly tired, weary, groggy, struggling with my thoughts and desires for past behaviors and habits.
         Specifically--last Friday I was being tempted big time with these things. I was just weighed down, dry, and hopeless. All day was a struggle to conquer my flesh and by come the night I was ready to just give in when the Lord reminded me of a worship night that was happening on campus. I felt I needed to go, though that was the last place I wanted to be after feeling just gross.
It came 8:30pm when the worship time began, I closed my eyes and God spoke to me to just give a little and He would take it and run. So I entered into worship and prayer and before I know it it's 2am and I'm on my face experiencing the Holy Spirit in such a tangible way.
I went to the worship nights Saturday and Sunday following this night and God began to use me to pray for others as well. It felt so good and I could feel that fire begin to spark again!
Monday, I had a great day. Even though I got no sleep over the weekend from work and staying up in the night worshiping, I was more than energized. The Lord is awesome.
         Now here's where things get WILD--Tuesday, yesterday. Specifically last night in the prayer room. I wish I knew the words to describe to you what took place in those 3 hours of worship...I'll try my best.
It all started with us making a human "Joy Tunnel". You know- where people run through it and the Joy of the Lord knocks them out and everyone gets drunk in the spirit, no big deal, right? No. It was freaking crazy. I was at the beginning of the tunnel praying/touching people who went through. The Holy Spirit came over me and as soon as I would lay my hand on people, or even motion toward them they would fall over in laughter and deep joy. Some would go into what looked like a seizure...rolling around, screaming, laughing, kicking, falling over, Holy Spirit DRUNK. He kept filling me the rest of the night. It was like God and I partnered up. He would tell me exactly who to go pray for or touch and HE would work His magic.
         It was hilarious! God told me to touch one of my friends, and when I did--she fell over in laughter. Then He told me to help her back up and touch her stomach again. Every time I did this she would fall over again and again and again. He did this to several people with me. God has a sense of humor!
         People have prophesied JOY over me....but I'll be honest...I wasn't expecting this! I was thinking He would use me to simply make a person smile or laugh. But no there's so much more! Like literally people experiencing the Joy of the Lord DEEP in the pits of their stomaches and hearts that over takes their beings and overwhelms their souls. WOAH! *Heidi Baker head-whip and voice*.
         God spoke to me while all this was breaking out. The first thing I kept hearing over and over in my head was "Finally!". In a relieved breathy happy voice. God was saying He was so happy He could finally use me in the way He'd been waiting to, there was such a sense of relief. Also, He said that if I hadn't of listened to Him when He told me to wear leggings under my shorts that night He couldn't have used me to the fullest because the lack of complete modesty would have been a barrier. Especially since I was all over the place, holding people up, and falling over myself. He also said "This is just practice. A glimpse of what I have for you coming. This is how I want to use you". God was also telling me the whole time not to be afraid. Just go to the people He says to go to, do what He says, and HE will do the rest. And boy did He! Who knew God could use someone like me? I didn't....Until now!
       It's funny how God will meet us where we're at. For me--in a state of hopelessness, confusion, temptation, and weariness. What a magnificent, powerful, mighty, victorious, loving, joyful God we serve. I never want the spirit to leave me after I've experience Him in this deep and passionate way. My heart is whole and my mind is set on the things of Christ. I will continue to face temptation because by choosing the Lord I have immediately made myself an enemy of Satan. As long as I stay rightly related to God and others I will subdue evil. "The birds will fly over your head--but don't let them make a nest."

       Do you think I'm crazy yet?! If so--GOOD. Because I think I might be just that.

Goodnight all.
Xoxo †